Potentially fully involved? How about never invest in a helpless cause

This last night brought a revelation to my attention, some people are just plain silly. Take for example one romantically involved woman I have grown rather attached, or rather close, to these last 8 months give or take a bit. I spent many months trying to win over her heart only to be consistently told "I'm not worth it" "I tend to hurt people I get involved with" and most recently the whole "seeing 8 guys" situation. Very interesting predicament I got myself into this time around eh?

So I day or two in the last week or so once again trying to win over this hopeless cause as was so frequently pointed out. Maybe I wasn't ready to give up, but one thing for sure is I wasn't going to throw in all my chips before seeing what the other hands hold. It has almost turned into a game of cat and mouse. Her being the cat who likes to play with more then one mouse at a time, but never did this cat realize the mouse liked being toyed with and never layed all its cards on the table.

I learned too many times the hard way that you are never to put all your money or time into something that has a doubt of failure. Even more was I told never toss it all into a situation where everyone insist is doomed to fail. So how would it be suprising to find that I still hold the high card and half my fortune?

I guess what I am trying to say is, why would I try to catch a girl who is uncatchable? That is just plain stupid, granted it made a rather enjoyable game at the time, but why would I put all my effort into such an action? There is no reason.

Perhaps she was suprised when she realized that I haven't even been pursueing her as much as she thought. Or perhaps she wasn't. Eitherway what it comes down to is the simple fact that I dance to her song, but there is no way in hell I would show all my moves before then end of the show, and it seems her tune isn't going to last the whole concert.

Once she called me a gentleman, said I was "charming". Dear if only you knew if I were actually willing to put it all on the line. You thought I was relatively good then, but in reality I haven't even shown the true depth of my colors. It brings a slight smile to my face thinking about all the little things I did, and all the things I chose to not use in this game. There is no doubt that if I really wanted, I could hook any fish. Its only a matter of using all your lures until it bites and doesn't let go, but im only playing catch and release with this fishy.

I also just realized I am using way to many analogies...that is slightly annoying. However if halfheartedly I can work my way up to the third seat, imagine what I could of done if a little effort were applied. Perhaps there is more to me then meets the eye, and perhaps there is more to me then even you or myself would like to admit.

Then on the other hand someone calls me a knight in shining armor without knowing me? Now that in itself causes me to chuckle even if it wasn't meant in that sense of the term. I always thing of into the woods when I hear that term, still have no clue why.