quite possibly hopeless

It's been a while since I jotted anything down online, so lets begin this whole process once again. I began working 2 third shifts a week for a few reasons, mainly being hours and I need a bigger pay check. However I can already feel it taking a toll on me mentally and physically. It is exhausting having to work the third shift and then switch over to first in the same week. Its even harder going from third to first and then BACK to third. Needless to say my schedual is a little messed up.

However I believe it to be worth it. With the added hours I can see my pay check increase and that is always a good pay off. Then comes the matter of having no social life whatsoever due to this schedual. I don't have time to go out and meet new people or strengthen the relationships I already have. When I am not at work I am trying to sleep to adjust in order to take on the next day.

Call me a little stupid, or alot, but because of this I am feeling very...solitary??? When only work and sleep exist in my life, I feel rather hollow and remote. I even opened an account on some online dating site in hopes of finding something entertaining in the process late at night. Thus far nothing very entertaining, besides who would ever go out with or get to know some guy they would never see because hes always either in bed or at work unless its 4 in the morning?

Living with my sister has helped out alot with my depression and anxiety however. I am very greatful I had this opportunity but now she is moving out to Washington state soon and I have no clue what I am going to do. I can't afford to move out on my own, and I don't know if mentally I can handle going back to the folks. I'm kinda stuck between a rock and a hard place which...sucks to say the least? Well I must now get going, the folks are expecting me to meet them for lunch. Hey food is always good right?